Is this rape?

Shiver
passes down my spine
I know that you are there
but do i run?

Push me up against the wall
My struggle makes you randy
breath is hot agianst my face
is it sour or is it sweet
how am I supost to feel
how am I supost to act

Clammy hands shed from me
my dignity
do you feel like a man
is it better when I fight you
Do you like to hear me scream
Does this feel like it's a dream

Is this pain or is this pleasure?
Is it rape or am I willing
Is there something wrong with me to love the ones who hurt me so?